Sitting with sadness

I am sad about something. What it is, isn’t important. Well, it is important to me but you don’t need to know what it is.

It’s not a big thing, not really. It’s to do with the changing nature of human relationships, love and friendship… That probably makes it sound bigger than it is, but its not. Not really. But like I said, it’s important to me.

I only realised today that it matters so much. I have been telling myself to forget it, its a minor thing, in a year’s time it will not be important, its silly to be sad about it, etc… But the more I push it away, the heavier it lands the next time it comes to mind.

So today I just decided to sit with my sadness, to allow myself to be upset about this small thing, to shed a tear even. And you know what? I feel better. It’s still bothers me a little, but its a lighter, less cumbersome emotion to carry. Now I can say ‘this too shall pass,’ and really believe it.

I think I need let go of conventions around what I should or shouldn’t get emotional about more often than I do, and just allow myself to sit with the sadness for a while.